The most unfortunate man in the world

I have no stats to prove this, no evidence to support my argument but if you are destined to be the most unfortunate person in the world you will be born as a baloch in Balochistan

Balochistan is the largest province of Pakistan, 45% of the countries land with the largest coastline of more than 700 Kms. The strategic location of the Balochistan’s Gawader port and its international borders with Afghanistan and Iran make it a Global Trade Corridor to China, Central Asia and even the gulf. Out of 50 minerals produced and exported from Pakistan 40 have reserves in Balochistan, with energy resources as Uranium, hydrocarbon and natural gas.

But that is not unfortunate – Lucky you eh? There is more.

Balochistan has one of worlds largest copper and gold reserves. The gold mines in Balochistan are compared to those in Sarcheshmeh, Iran and Escondida, Chile, which are the second and the third largest known deposits of copper in the world. The copper reserves are said to generate 900,000 to 2.2 million tons annually.

Now let’s see with all that mineral wealth and strategic location how your life would be??

Well if you are born in Balochistan chances are you may live for lesser than 28 days as 72 in every thousand newborns die within that time period, most of them from preventable causes. Children in south-Sudan or Ethiopia would have better chances then you to survive.

If you are lucky enough to survive first 28 days of your life is a high chance you may not live to see your 5th birthday, as out of every thousand children under 5 years, 89 die mostly from conditions such as diarrhea, pneumonia and other vaccine preventable conditions. In case you survive this possibility for you to see your mother is very slim. Because it is a high probability your mother will die giving birth to you or a few days after that.Maternal mortality of Balochistan is 785/100,000 live births , as compared to 272/100,000 live births in Pakistan.

In fact if Balochistan was a country it would have been on the 8th country with highest maternal mortality ratio in the world (next to south-Sudan,  Chad , Somalia, Central African Republic,  Burundi and Guinea-Bissau) You think you are lucky you lived...Think again because there is a 50% chance that you will be chronically malnourished as every one in two child in Balochistan is stunted. Research suggests that stunting affects cognitive skills and mental development, school performances and economic productivity.

Only 40% of the population in the province is covered by community based health workers and facilities are even less.

Children of Balochistan

Children of Balochistan

Now you are 6 and survived the odds somehow,

pray and pray hard that you are in those 44% children who are enrolled in primary school. Though there are nearly 10,000 primary schools in Balochistan but probability of that school being without a teacher or not practically existing on ground is very high. (They call it a Ghost school)

So now you have had your primary education because you are not that unfortunate…you have to pray again and pray harder because 77% of children enrolled in primary school dropout and may not attend a middle/secondary school.  But do remember only 30% of the schools are in a satisfactory condition probably you will be sitting on floor outside under a tree shed.

Moreover, remember you have to be a boy to achieve this because if you are a girl your chances to be in a middle/secondary school drop by 50% Now since you are the lucky one – you might fulfill your secondary education and you can actually get a chance to get some higher education –in one of the ONLY three universities in the province.

School in Kalat Balochistan

School in Kalat Balochistan

 you are done studying , young energetic looking for employment

You know unemployment rate in Balochistan is 33.4 % which is not that bad you know why because that’s better than being in Afghanistan where this rate is 35%.

So 70% chances are you may get some work But wait there is also a 70% chance that you will earn less than 2 dollars a day. And there is an equal (70%)chance that your household will not have access to food, or there will be no food available to your family.

DAMN!! You thought that was tough

Now imagine you have to live in a ongoing conflict as-well

You can also be in one of those people in an estimated range of 4,000-14,000 people who just disappear. Don’t be shocked. You can actually be one of those who are subjected to enforced disappearances.

If you are luckier you can be killed in a target attack or a bomb blast well more than 500 people have lost their lives in such incidents only in 2013. (Figures go beyond thousands for past one decade)

This is not just any conflict this includes separatist movements, sectarian violence and state funded violence.

A small girl holding a picture of a missing young boy ...

A small girl holding a picture of a missing young boy …

 Now imagine how unlucky you would be if in the midst of all this there is a 7.8 magnitude earthquake

68.5% chances are that you live in a mud house with half or less percent of chances of having a radio, tv or any mode of transport.

And if you are in the worst affected Awaran district do remember that there are no metalled roads in the district and only 584 KMs of graveled road in an area of 21,630 square kilometers

SO WHEN THE 7.2 EARTHQUAKE STRIKES this is what you will see

  • Government does not have a head of provincial disaster management authority, there is no cabinet (no ministers as they were never formed even 3 months after elections) , Chief Minister is in London for a dead poets birthday , there are only 3 doctors in the  worst affected district  and only one ambulance.

  • Pakistani media and the nation is marveled by Earthquakes precious gift ..The NEW ISLAND!!

  • The relief work is targeted (supposedly) by the separatist groups …

  • The armed forces (allegedly) are holding aid, checking, harassing, and suspecting relief workers and aid being a masked effort to support the separatists

  • Aid workers (if there are a few or any) too fearful to get in the areas and at the same time striving for funds as international organizations have not been asked for help

  • International organizations (theoretically saviors of humanity) waiting for a letter or a piece of document to save lives of people

More than 300,000 people..People like you are affected and over 500 HUMAN BEINGS as human as you lose their lives.

A girl walks past a collapsed house  following the earthquake

A Pakistani girl walks past a collapsed house following the earthquake

And there you are the unfortunate one who lives;

you will either be looking for your loved ones under the debris or burying them in an unknown ditch like Miral a resident of Awaran

Or you are searching for food among the rubble of your once standing mud-house starving for days without any food and water supplies You are waiting for help..

When there are more important things than you and your dead ..as a new island, a dead poets anniversary , a freedom fight and a rotten policy to counter conflict. So here you go..

The most unfortunate person in the world!!

 

(All the stats are referenced from Demographic Health Survey Pakistan 2007, UNICEF  WHO and UNESCO studies on health and education)

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Why I can’t Celebrate the Independence Day

Just a few years back 14th august meant everything to me, it was the most important day of the year at School and at home. Flags, badges, new patriotic song albums that is all we waited for.

Who is going to be a part of singing that Vital Signs or Junoon song, which Girl will be part of the skit on patriotism that is all we could think of. And of course after the celebrations at school we were all excited to roam around the Zarghoon road to see the lights on Governor House, Provincial Assembly and the High Court. And if we were very lucky our school would take us to Ziarat to Quaid’s residency

I always wrote one of those patriotic speeches for the school assembly-excited and full of enthusiasm .

Now today that feeling is gone, there are no lights, no songs and no badges because there is bloodshed, there is mourning and there is fear and death. Let me tell you why :

The people who disappeared 

Today this “Independence day” there are many mothers and sisters in Balochistan who are waiting for a loved one to return home a young boy who went to school and never returned, a father who was sitting with his friends at a local restaurant sipping tea and some armed man came and took him from there,or a brother who was vocal about rights of people in Balochistan and he went out of home never came back.

No one knows how many people are missing; the numbers are estimated in thousands .Estimated 4,000 people went missing between 2004 and 2005. Voice for Missing Baloch Persons claims that more than 14,000 people are missing in Balochistan . These people are allegedly taken by Armed Personal non uniformed backed by Agencies or by FC themselves

A small girl holding a picture of a missing young boy ...

A small girl holding a picture of a missing young boy …

“on July 1, 2010, Shams Baloch, the 49-year old former mayor of Khuzdar town in Balochistan,was abducted from an ambulance while accompanying his sick mother to a hospital in Quetta, Balochistan’s capital. About an hour after they left Khuzdar, men in Frontier Corps uniforms stopped the ambulance at a checkpoint and ordered Baloch to get out. They proceeded to beat him, while holding others at gunpoint. Four armed men in plain clothes arrived a short time afterwards and took Baloch with them. The police refused to investigate.”

“We Can Torture, Kill, or  Keep You for Years”2011-Human Rights Watch ( Report)

Tortured dead bodies of these people are often found on roadsides, abandoned buildings and in pits.

The bodies surface quietly, like corks bobbing up in the dark. They come in twos and threes, a few times a week, dumped on desolate mountains or empty city roads, bearing the scars of great cruelty. Arms and legs are snapped; faces are bruised and swollen. Flesh is sliced with knives or punctured with drills; genitals are singed with electric prods. In some cases the bodies are unrecognizable, sprinkled with lime or chewed by wild animals. All have a gunshot wound in the head.

Declan Walsh

The Guardian, Wednesday 30 March 2011

He should have been in a School not in a protest waiting for his father

He should have been in a School not in a protest waiting for his father

You can find a number of news reports, pictures, social media content online..and some how all of that does not exist for people of my country -the people of  Pakistan.

“She has given up on the state of Pakistan and its people. “Isn’t it quite obvious that they hate us Baloch people? If Zakir has committed a crime why don’t they bring him to a court, put him on trial, and punish him? Why are they punishing the whole family, the whole nation?” -Farzana Majeed sister of a missing activist Zakir Majeed (Express Tribune)

The killings, the bombings , Criminals and our worlds falling apart

Have you ever seen someone hide their faces , cover their eyes with dark glasses , wear gloves just because they will be seen and they will be killed. Every day for nearly past 6 years some Hazara were shot  somewhere in Quetta, gone unnoticed. The Hazara people mourned

Hazara Girl from Quetta crying at a protest held by Hazara in Quetta following scores dead in a bomb blast

Hazara Girl from Quetta crying at a protest held by Hazara in Quetta following scores dead in a bomb blast

their dead silently each day. They cannot go out of their areas in Quetta Hazara town and Alamdar road, they are known for their mongolian features they are shot killed …

More than 500 Hazara are only killed in 2013 

Then came the big incidents this year..Hazara’s of Quetta sat 3 days outside their houses with their dead demanding justice demanding the perpetrators (Who everyone knows off ) to be caught…and there was nothing. Silence

On our streets our professors were killed people like Saba Dashtiyar and Nazima Talib. On our streets Balochistan National Parties political leaders and workers were shot dead, and on the same streets you can see hundreds and thousands of security forces, beating up school children, performing body search of innocent youth and cursing the women.

On the streets of Quetta the school girls are bombed and hospitals are blown up. And again on the same street you can see those private death squads walking with their arms … left by security forces to do whatever they want to do.. Kill burn loot …

In the same city there is a Golf Course… where not for a day the grass looked pale, where not for a day  flowers faded away… There are celebrations..there is happiness… as if it is two different countries .There is no corner of Quetta where blood has not been shed, there is rarely a house which hasn’t seen violence.

Following an Incident in Quetta. Hazara youth

Following an Incident in Quetta. Hazara youth

“I devoted my life to my child, but the terrorists killed my son. Now without my son I don’t want to live any more,”- Azroa Safdder a Hazara Mother (Report)

Tyranny is not these people were taken by the state, or state sponsored militias. Tyrany’s is my so called brothers and countrymen are blind to it. Tyranny is when it comes to Balochistan the Human Rights are “Selective”.None of my fellow countrymen ask “who were these people” ? .“Why were they taken”? , “If they had done something wrong why haven’t they been presented in Pakistan Courts”, If some other force has taken them then why aren’t Pakistani security agencies looking for them.

Instead my brothers and my countrymen say to me  this is all a propaganda, you are a CIA agent, India is funding you, or even worse they will come with a history logic saying Balochistan does not belong to Baloch people and you are refugees here.

That is my Countries answer to 1,000s of people missing and hundreds killed and dumped on streets, in the sewerages and in abandoned building. This is my country’s answer to all those mothers who are waiting, all those children who have lost their fathers and all those youngsters who have lost their friends.

The famous political parties can shout about people dying from “Drones”, but would never says a word on “where are these missing people”.

The Pakistani media who create havoc on some court case, or some politicians called some other politician an agent. But none of them would ask “Where are these people”? “Why are they being killed”.

For me and people like me in Balochistan human rights are not selective , we are as grieved for our Hazara brothers as we are for Baloch, we equally condemn the attacks on unarmed people from Punjab as for the Baloch , we are equally shaken at the incidents in Karachi as for those in Quetta or Turbat.

Hundreds of Haraz are killed and thousands fled the country and apart from a few tweets, some articles there is nothing..

But I don’t see that with my fellow countrymen- it’s as if everyone is blind to issues in Balochistan, it’s as if people in Pakistan don’t consider us humans or human enough.

It seems as if anything the Media, the politicians and the citizens of Pakistan care about is the Gawder port, the pipeline to Iran , the reiko dik project and the Quaid’s residency . We the Baloch people, our miseries and our pain , our dead bodies, our bloodshed does not matter.It seems as if children carrying pictures of their loved ones don’t exist as if we don’t exist

There are no more songs..No more lights ..No more flag.

For only thing we are left is left  with is mourning, sounds of gunshots and screams of the people who are being tortured right now somewhere… somewhere a Hazara mother is crying at a loss of his son… and somewhere in Pakistan people are celebrating the independence day.

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To Dr. Malik Baloch

Dear Dr Malik Baloch

For the first time in history of Balochistan, a common man will be leading the province. The way elections were conducted under fear and terror I don’t know if I should be hopeful, but I will be.

Respected Chief Minister I write to you requesting you as a Baloch and as a citizen of Pakistan belonging to the province of Balochistan to always remember a few daunting facts when you take decisions, sign documents and when you lead this war-torn province.

Dr Malik our people are poor, unemployed and they face hunger. Our people still live in caves!!

You must know that more than 50% population in our province lives below poverty line, and situation in worse in rural Balochistan where more than 70% of people live in poverty. Every 7 in 10 household in Balochistan are food insecure, meaning they have no access to food or there is no availability of food.

Dr.Malik let’s take a look at health in Balochistan.

Do you know that our future is at stake?  More than half of children under age of 5 in Balochistan are chronically malnourished, and the condition is irreversible. Malnutrition will affect a child’s health making the child more prone to disease, it will affect their cognitive skills resulting in loss of productivity and thus affecting their socio-economic adult lives.16% of the malnourished children are suffering from severely acute malnutrition – this is above the World Health Organization threshold of a emergency.

If a child is born in Balochistan there are high chances he/she may not live to see his 5th birthday.89 in every thousand children under 5 years of age die mainly from conditions as “Diarrhea”, “Pneumonia” and vaccine preventable infections. Even though there are programs such as Expanded Program on Immunization and Polio Eradication Initiative working in Balochistan only 35% of the children in the province are fully immunized which his lowest in the cou

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ntry. Moreover, Quetta, Pishin and Killa-Abdullah are kno

wn as the Highest Risk areas for polio in world.

Dr. Malik being a medical doctor you must be well aware of the fact that the Maternal Mortality in Balochistan is highest in South Asia. 81% of the deliveries are not carried out by any skilled birth attendants putting mothers at risk of losing their life. In fact when you compare it to the world ranking Balochistan would rank in top 15 countries with highest m
ortality rates in the world. Every one of two women are anemic and micronutrient deficient.

You know more than me that an individual spends a handful of money and travels for miles to get to a health

facility. When he reaches a Basic Health Unit he receives inadequate health services, there is poor management, staff is absent,

the numbers of trained professionals are limited and there is no accountability for any of this. Story of hospitals is even worse there are only a few hospitals in the province, severely mismanaged and overburdened leading to further deterioration of health overall.

The truth is positions in Health department are highly politicized, nonqualified inefficient individuals wit

h strong linkages with ministers get to managerial positions in the sector damaging the system through mismanagement, lack of accountability and corruption.

You were former Education Minister of the province, while your party boycotted the elections this is how education in Balochistan is now.

Dr.Malik frequently when I hear people talking about people of Balochistan they refer to us as “Jahil” and that word kills me, because people don’t know our struggle for education. When some of us survive this struggle as Dr Mazaar Khan did and they get killed, or Zakir Majeed who get abducted it only throws us hundreds of years back.

But Dr Malik how can I tell people we are not “Jahil” when more than one million children of primary school going age are out of schools. 77% of the primary school age group do not attend elementary schools .The National Education Survey suggests that three fourth of our population is illiterate, where female literacy in rural Baluchistan is lower than 10%. .

How can it get better when only 30% of our schools are in a satisfactory condition and services are not existent ?  Various data sources suggest that there are thousands of ghost schools and teachers in Balochistan .

Someone lucky enough to survive the unfortunate circumstances of primary and secondary education will come to notice that there are only three universities in Balochistan for higher education and two of them have already been targeted by the extremist groups. Dr.Malik you and I both know how hard it is for a gir

l to get education , it’s a life time effort… an endless fight , and when these girls get to university only some of them are

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A school in Balochistan

allowed to work. When some of these girls get killed on roads as they did this week it only stops other girls to put that effort and fight that fight.

I am not much familiar with infrastructure development however I know for a fact that as soon as you enter suburbs of Quetta, the roads become rough and at some point within a few hours they end. As soon as you are out of Quetta you see

poverty in Pakistan’s richest province.

Our challenges regarding health and education are long term and they need long term planning. Security is the major hurdle in any of our progress I agree… But political recruitments, no regards to merit, lack of accountability, and corruption are killing more people. When you chose your team and when you sit on the seat remember that many of us don’t have food to eat, many of us die due to lack of facilities and many of us may never read a book because our own people failed us.

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I am strong- I am a working woman in Balochistan

So no matter what you do ..  If you are a working women  people will always think you are an “available women”.

Where i live is a very good example of “it’s a men’s world” ..A tribal society, a male dominated society… where women are just wives, mothers or sisters and not people.. and where women are preffered to be “KEPT IN” and they are the so called “Honour”

Fortunately or unfortunately … or both i have  to work fortunately not for mere purpose of earning but for full filling my dreams and ambitions as well. My work has its own challenges.. long working hours, lot of information to keep up with  – reading and writing . proving my self  as i read somewhere

“Because I am a woman, I must make unusual efforts to succeed.  If I fail, no one will say, “She doesn’t have what it takes.”  They will say, “Women don’t have what it takes.” 

So i have to make unusual efforts.. work harder spend more time on work then my male colleagues, keep composed, focused and be professional . Every step I take is  like balancing yourself on a rope… because i am a women.

If i dress up…the men will assume i am very available

If i don’t dress up …man will still think i am very available

And then there is always that Gaze.. where you feel YOU ARE DOING Something WRONG …you have committed a sin and everyone have their eyes pinned on you

At times my opinion usually wouldn’t count until i pass ir on to a male colleague who will say the same thing.. get all approval ..n nods  n i would feel happy that atleast i know it was me… but then again sometimes i have to speak up and i am so right “THEY” have to accept that I AM RIGHT or i make sense..( but their big fat male egos rarely allow them)

The literacy in Balochistan (part of the world where i live) is lower than 30% – so i am one of those very lucky and very rare females who get to complete their education.

Narrowing down even more And believe it  or not they female employment is not more than 7% …( State Bank of Pakistan stated this in annual report 2006-07)

So I am a very rare specie already…

I deserve to be encouraged and treated with respect for that.

But No.. because I am a women…and i am out for work… I must be available for all men, look pretty and just make the “meetings” pleasant.

Because i am a women

That is me.. a mid-level manager..in a good organization. What about that school teacher?or that Nurse…or the girl who is a health worker? the domestic worker??  the farm labours or the ones who work at a bricklin what about them… what about all those women who have to come out of their homes,earn for their children ,for the medicines …for food..

they must go through worse ..being treated as objects- hopeless Yet brave fighting a battle everyday…yet never giving up.

they are my inspiration- yes they are

If only men realized… That they are more honourable when they share the burden, when they care for their families, when they dream.

They deserve to be encouraged , protected and treated with respect.

You SHOULD be actually dishonoured when your son goes and harass women who are walking on the street , at your workplace or working at home. 

I  am a women, I work.. I am still respectable ,I am still honourable and well I am better than you -because i work harder despite of the Gaze , despite of the comments , despite of the fact that you ignore my capabilities and my strengths . I am better because with courage, strength and dignity I  keeping going on…when you stand in my way in the name of honour or religion.. I still carry on .. I still dream

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Hazara killings:a tale of tragedy

Aqeel a student of Balochistan University of Information Technology was killed in Quetta as a result of terrorist attack on the university bus

I cannot sleep..Whenever i close my eyes i have this picture in front of my eyes,a photograph of a student named Aqeel a student of Balochistan University of Information Technology who was killed during a terrorist attack on the university bus. It reminds me of our university bus..must have been an ordinary day for Aqeel..getting ready for the university,excitement of carrying out certain task in the class he liked..praying that the professor is on leave for the class he hated.Maybe uploading some music on his phone to listen on his way to the university..A normal day !! But it wasnt a normal day it was his last ride..his last day in this cruel world.On his way to University  a remote-controlled bomb was planted in a jeep parked along a roadside the bomb was detonated when a bus drove near to it.It killed Aqeel and 10 of his university colleagues , a few passers buy.60 students were injured … and for what?? A bearded man who thought that “His religion” is better than the “religion” Aqeel was following. The same day Aqeel’s picture was posted on facebook..A young boy with innocent eyes and a victim of terrorism. thinking about it..every day someone like Aqeel dies on the roads of Quetta city..every other day someone in this small city of      1,140,000     is a victim of terrorism. Most of them being Hazara ,Shia’s and Baloch.

Is it a genocide???

I thought lets see what genocide actually is..and i reffed to Convention on the Prevention and Punishmentof the Crime of Genocide- Adopted by Resolution 260 (III) A of the United Nations General Assembly on 9 December 1948. The article 2 of document stated that :

In the present Convention, genocide means any of the following acts committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnical, racial or religious group, as such:

  • Killing members of the group;
  • Causing serious bodily or mental harm to members of the group;
  •  Deliberately inflicting on the group conditions of life calculated to bring about its physical destruction in whole or in part;
  • Imposing measures intended to prevent births within the group;
  •  Forcibly transferring children of the group to another group.

Hazara’s are being systematically killed in the city.Around 700 Hazaras have been killed in Quetta ..thousands of them have been permanently disabled by the terrorist attacks as Bomb Blasts, Target killing attempts , Rockets etc. Hundreds of Hazaras have fled to other parts of the world legally or illegal. Tyranny is Not one terrorist has been brought to justice.Not one court case-not one trail. Not one single person!! Over half a million Hazaras are terrorized on a daily basis for last 10 years.

Question is why Hazara ???

Hazara people have been a victim of terrorism  not only in Pakistan,the crimes against Hazara nations have been reported in Afghanistan and Iran and history of Hazara prosecution is dates as back as 19th century. Taliban   killed hundreds of Hazara   in  YakaolangBamiyan, and Mazar-e-Sharif with from 1998 to 2001. For incident in Iran during a single incident in 1998, Iranian forces killed more than 630 refugees, mostly Hazaras, in the Safed Sang Camp detention center. The discrimination against Hazara is so high that they are not even allowed to enter Parks in Iran. Hazara genocide in Pakistan has a broader picture: The Ongoing shia genocide in Pakistan where groups as Laskhar-e-Jhangvi and Sipa-e-Sahaba actively target Shia’s all over the country Hazara being the most vulnerable for having the Mongolian appearance and living in a small closed community on a strategic location as Quetta. These organizations are not only carrying out terrorist attacks but also implanting seeds of hatred in minds of young people towards Shai’s and Hazara .There are extensive hate campaigns carried out in form of speeches,hate literature ..and even marketing techniques as wall chalking , posters and billboards.

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Tragedy is following the IT University incident in Quetta , other universities in Balochistan have asked Hazara students to travel in separate buses .

Hazara students will be travelling in separate buses due to threats..making them sitting ducks and easy targets

As qouted by Saleem Javed in one of his articles According to Asmat Yari, the president of Hazara Students Federation (HSF), “Almost 75% of Hazara students have quit the university and those who remain cannot attend classes because of fear.” School attendance has also decreased by 10 percent this year, and college attendance by 25 percent. Parents do not let their children take exams in centers outside of the areas deemed safe for the Hazaras. Hundreds and thousands of Hazara youth have fled the country, living in detention centers in Indonesia and Australia- the hardships and tragedies faced by asylum seekers is another tale of misery and inhumanity.

Aqeel has left us..but there are many like him,living their life in fear..living life in despair. I did not use any extreme graphics, pictures of blood and people dying..There is just this one picture of Aqeel who left us because hundreds of Armed security forces in the city did not protect him, because people are too blind in hatred..and because he belonged to a minority group.

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Leave this island before you can’t

I woke up yesterday with a huge explosion … , I would have been surprised if it was a thunderstorm .But it was something we are much used to a Bomb Blast or a rocket explosion.In 2011 only there have been more than 860 bomb blasts in Pakistan with more than 2000 injured..It has been 10 years a decade since 9/11..and this is how our lives have changed

This is how Quetta looked on

My earliest memory of 9/11 is..in October 2001 , i remember in the night BBC ran a new s that USA has planned an attack on Afghanistan , and next day there were protests..for one of the very first times in my city we saw mass protests , i remember the smoke!! and that’s what i have been seeing since than.

Quetta was called the “little london”

I remember correspondents from all over the world standing on roof top of Serena hotel,perhaps back then we had no idea how 9/11 will change our lives.Musharaf was a hero back than, the savior of the nation…we never knew that Boots and guns are not savior of anything or anyone…

My vocabulary improved though now i know what a B52 is..so does that old lady in my village, we know who president Bush was…both me and the old lady in my village.I know there is something called a Daisey cutter Bomb.

I never knew who Taliban were..I came to knew there is a guy called MUllah Omer, i remember people saying differnt things about them,Talbian were cruel no no, they were honest…some said. But yeh they did beat up women i remember a video

Rally Supporting Taliban-October 2001

Post 9/11 Quetta isnt much pretty there are Bombs, Rockets…Target Killings…Post 9/11 Quetta is my home..between extremists and hatred.Post 9/11 Quetta is just terror and fear.

Post 9/11 Quetta tells me its okay to kill someone if he dosent pray the way you do…It tells me that if you are weak its easy for the state to bomb you and make your youth disappear.It tells me if you open your mouth and demand justice your bullet riddled dead body will be thrown in a ditch.

Post 9/11 Quetta says, the strongest man of the strongest province will be killed by a religious fanatic on a road by his own gun man and people will throw petals at him.It says the only road to paradise ,to heaven, to glory is Bombs and guns …killing the non believers..it says you can find the worlds most wanted man in one of the most unexpected places…!!!

I have seen bodies of beloved ones soaked in blood not knowing who killed them..i have seen fear, and i have seen hatred. Life has changed …its not just the twin towers gone it’s..

All this leaves me to a Chuck Pahlunik novel...saying leave this island before you cant..

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Friendship day!!!!

I logged on to my Facebook account after a Post Sehri sleep…as I have nothing to do except for facebook.I found out it was the friendship day. Well, I thought I had heard of this day somewhere back in school or college where we used to give each other cards, or when we got hold of internet used to log on to 123 greetings and send a e-card.

Then I just thought of hey now I have facebook why not to send a friendship day message to my friends and then I started to browse through a long list of my friends. Friends ??

I thought again … This is just a guy from work, that girl I hardly know is from college…that is my aunties daughter so had to add her , this guy well I don’t really remember who exactly he is IRC? Yahoo  chat? Cannot remember …     Finally some friends.  That guy well he had a crush on me so.. That technically is not a friend.This is a friend we lived in Hostel together. Well we haven’t talked in years I thought does it still make her my friend.. Naaa..

OH MY GOD It suddenly strike me I have no friends, I started feeling pangs in my stomach but that is not possible I am this super friendly and nice person how can I not have friends I thought… Lemme go back and check..

No wait first I need to decide how do I categorize a friend hmm a friend ? Gibran..came to my mind

Your friend is your needs answered.

He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.

And he is your board and your fireside.

For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the “nay” in your own mind, nor do you withhold the “ay.”

And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unclaimed.

When you part from your friend, you grieve not;

For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.

And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.

For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend.

If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.

For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?

Seek him always with hours to live.

For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

Ahh well.. . As a girl in the part of the world its always hard to keep friends,some get married..some want to get married so basically after college u have to start from scratch. Is it a matter of priority in life no I don’t think so .Its a matter of need, the person who you need the most for that time in that place, can be someone who can help you do ur assignments ,can be someone who can let you have a good time at work, can be someone who will listen to all your crap in hostel.. and then when that time and place is done you are done with that person.

However there is always this one person in your facebook list who you can always count on, who would always listen to you, be happy for you when you have achieved something. Say everything will be ok when you are said .This one person who will always answer your phone call whenever he/she can or drop you a message I will call you laters. Ask you to shutup when you are being too pessimist and  believe in you. And I am happy I have one person in my list

Life is grey without friends.

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